Have been really debating as to what to use this blog for. Should it be an online diary? Seems kind of an odd thing to do as my plan is not to attract readers... and yet even though I don't want it to seem like I am moaning all the time I need a place to vent, whether it be good or bad. I wrote a diary for years when I was in my twenties and it really helped me sort my head out from time to time. I feel like I need that today.
Work's hard at the moment. I am back doing my old job and I just am finding it difficult to muster up passion for the same thing as I was doing 3 years ago. Everything annoys me and directly managing individuals is a bit of a thankless and unrewarding task at the moment. Ever the optimist I keep thinking things will improve but it's like wading through treacle.
Home life is OK, I am tired but the kids and hubby are great. Have my parents staying at the moment, and things are really strained between my dad and I which is causing a real heaviness about me today. He's the most selfish person I know by a long shot and thinks the world revolves around him. I am just sick of it, he really drags me down.
This isn't doing the trick, in fact it's making me feel worse so I think I will go and get a coffee instead. If I smoked, I'd be going for a ciggie. If I wasn't desperate to shed my baby fat I'd have something nice and sweet. A glass of Champagne with my beloved would do the trick!
